dearest hope-

from the epistles of amerigo mackeral:

audio:

http://blog.oilcannoise.com/audio/dearesthope.mp3

nature--

from the epistles of amerigo mackeral:

audio:

http://blog.oilcannoise.com/audio/nature.mp3

dear fiction --

http://blog.oilcannoise.com/audio/dearfiction.mp3

national novel writing month

yes. november ws nanowrimo [see http://nanowrimo.org]

i ws able to conquer the goal of 50k words and as it turns out, as i type handwritten passages, even more words than i'd guessed.

the book i began in this 50k frenzy is called 'david's dream' or 'sleep, where in the waste is the wisdom?' oooooooor 'eat the earth'.

it features such favorites as sloths and talking fish. some 35 pps of typewritten manuscript are scanned & posted on the mighty flickr where ye can enjoy some delighting wordery, perhaps:

eat the earth

a blue ribbon for hermes: a black ribbon for royal

typed by me




typed by tomislav butkovic

a musical visit from tomislav butkovic

here are the results of tomislav's recent visit to the aquacade.


impossible love: a ballad

whistle me a recorder

thumb piano bells

thumb piano typewriter bells

whistle bells recorder

jew's harp duet

jew's harp duet

typewriter jew's harp duet






.

typewriter symphony number one

typewriter symphony






.

the cloudcover is replete with blazes

hear a poem i wrote: the cloudcover is replete with blazes



Bowling Green, Kentucky is eaten up by a hapless drawl
Denny's & Dine or Don't
neon shamans to flighty coffee rings
dirty collars and lipstick rims
mangle reflected faces

the great smoky mountains mock snow and conifers in late march sunlight
wide-jawed peasants spit tobacco bits from their lips
stare vacantly at overturned tractor trailers and mumble bible verses
washtub trained prayers
behind-the-ears mantras
idle hands search for the devil's playmate
mold red clay into mississippi bricks

the ohio river swells kentucky road signs
and terrorizes southern indiana tank commanders
the smell of cabbage and blue lights
left as Magda's breadcrumbs
the waffle house glow hounds Shiva from the back seat
to sniff the 7-11 dumpster

hot nevada night sprinklers ricochet from every brick wall
the Hoover Dam is lit from below
a playplace for dry tours and Arizona
Kingman is too far to justify not stopping
to fuck in the passenger seat on two laytex strewn lookouts
framed by rock, steel highway barriers and clear skies
down below is either nothing
or your mother's birthplace
it cant be water

the only business in chamberlain maine is bedded down in july
with no breakfast in sight
the postmaster/mayor Dana steers up the driveway in his late 80's buick
welcoming low tide and lobster pots
a pair of 1930's Schwinns from Southampton insure a lunchdate
with grandpa
and dessert in the grass by Pemaquid Lighthouse

Dolan Springs is keen on August
school
is the largest building in town
church
is a mobile home
chipped plowshares lean against corrugated siding on town hall
the tavern is dusty stucco fronted by a steel coca cola sign
that would have been shipped out as a saucer sled in another town

i'm terrified of huge dogs, lumberyards, snow shovels and drowning
take three aspirin, flip a coin
and hang on the left turn

night light

hear a poem i wrote many years ago: night light



1. up all night staring at the walls and the animals in the cracks on the ceiling by
the night light the animals talk to you and tell you stories and preside over your
dreams like a black robed menagerie hinting away nightmares letting you
dream of fun and interesting adventures with them or in airplanes in dogfights or civil war heroism or newfound reenactments of events past in this life the way things could/should have been-- fun- happy et cetera

2. looking through the new sears catalog picking out the coolest biggest toys you
know you'll never get for christmas hoping for something half that neat always
wondering about the people who really had that car bed or the cool g.i. joe tent
that hid their sleeping bag in the den and the eight foot plastic aircraft carrier
had room for more than twice the toys you had but made it more interesting with a skeleton crew maybe ghost ship like the latenight movie of the abandoned oil vessel that killed passengers and captain

3. walkie talkie listening in on latenight conversations not too nearby making up a name for yourself trying to make friends and figure out all the necessary lingo-
break one four break one four- a night cry for friendship and attention heard
through the cotton fields and down the nearby interstate each night

4. sometimes playing in the dark it's even night in the world of these toy soldiers as airplanes flew overhead out the window planes did the same over your bed night raids and rescue missions of your own liking mostly making peace with warring factions or betrayal for the betterment of this mock society in the end M.A.D. wasn't sure just a permanently momentary peace to pass another night

5. boasts and fears on a bestfriend's floor in a sleeping bag considering next
morning's soccer game or hike and possible strategy in woodland wargames
guns kept handy in case of intruders or parents or brothers invading the safety
of night light

6. bestfriend's little sister wants you to read her bedtime story not him and there is a fight over it that you win as he stomps off and you convince him later in the trundle bed that it's not that big a deal and hell he does it all the time and plus he can use the cool jet tomorrow after school and you plan the next battle no one will win and fall to sleep (losing another battle) smiling

GRAIL, or Grayle, The Holy (Saint Graal, Seynt Greal, Sangreal, Sank Ryal.) -- Encyclopaedia Britannica, Ninth Edition

GRAIL, or Grayle, The Holy (Saint Graal, Seynt Greal, Sangreal, Sank Ryal.) The correct spelling is "Graal." -- Encyclopaedia Britannica, Ninth Edition, ca. 1880


while searching for
whilst questing
amid looking

for this vessel
or shallow bowl
this dish
or cup

looking for the muchlookedfor
the highly sought

art-i-fact

greatly desired bloodbowl
a lamb's tiny bloodbath

the metropolis of wanting
megalopolis of desire

wonderworking vessel of legendary desire

the way of the chosen
chosen by oracular legend
sustenance of searching
subsequent searching

whilst looking for the looking for the looking for the looking

desirous of desire of desirousness
locked in a cult of desire

while searching for
direction

this quest
for this

object

came along
with an offer
of a quest with no end in sight

an occupation of preoccupation with desire
swilled from an ambiguous vessel
trilled to a darkening sky

leaves fly a spiral library in an unlettered sky.

words, words. how easily they can destroy. words, words. how ?
words, words. how easily the can follow words. words, words.
words, words. 1/2 price sale just in time for time. words, words.
halfoff words to stand in for unwritten words. how easily they
may be substituted. word for word. words, words. how they say
how to build. a low-cost library. words, words. layers upon
layers upon. layers upon. layers upon. words, words. in for
words. information. indication. separation. combination.
words, words. how easily they mention. how easily they make.
how easily they mistake. words, words. how easily words are made.
palimpset comprised of gathered leaves laid together. words.
words, words. overwritten. underwritten. subtext. pretext.
overwritten. underwritten. context. contact. supertext. words,
words, words, words. names that define. sounds that mean. words.
sounds that mean words. words that mean sounds. words, words.
how? how easily do they destroy? how easily do they create?
how easily do they confuse? fragile pressed leaves in cracking
bindings. skins that hold thoughts in. time is laid in lines
followed by eyes like words across these. words, words, words.
how? how easily the eyes recognize the lay of the lines. words.
who or why or how? words? when? what? how? words, words. how?
paperbound. overwritten. underwoven. palimpsest. sins with skins
with words within. words, words. how easily they stray/
words, words. how easily they say riddle ghose renaissance.
original leaves in verso. bound bridges braided together. words
words, words. leaves in veins bound in skins that hold thoughts
in. words, words. system of sliding eyes for meaning across
sections of thought. words, words. leaves bound in trees.
ink still wet. leaves in trees drip dry. leaves cut down
& bound. leatherbound. weatherbound. paperbound. waterbound.
featherbound. leafbound. skybound. words, words, words, words.
how easily they sail. fail. tail. leaves blown by wind.
wound by sound. covers of lights. leaves blown by wind. words
bound for eyes or hearts or veins or pains or leaves turned
by hands. words, words. leaves blown by wind sail meaning
crosst an unlettered sky. leaves blown by wind form a swirling library
like a lexical garden. leaves blown in a spiral library
on shelves of birds. words, words. leaves blown in a spiral
library on shelves of birds in an unlettered sky. words, words.
leaves in a muslin bag bound with a bit of silk string.
words, words. freed from a prison by a bell to fly. words, words.
leaves blown in a spiral library on shelves of birds in an un-
lettered sky. words, words. how easily they fly. words, words.
leaves drip from trees & color puddles exciting things. words
drop colors that mean well. words, words. leaves fly
a spiral library on shelves of birds in an unlettered sky. words
mixtures of words form species of leaves. words, words, words.
a beauty made by words. bound in leathery leaves. pressed to-
gether in volumes of smooth skies. words, words. how easily
words, words. how easily they change. how easily they move.
how easily they fly. leaves blown by wind. leaves fly
a spiral library on shelves of birds in an unlettered sky.
words in palimpsest over simpler leaves scraped from ancient trees.
words in palimpsest inscribed between the lines of an unknown
tongue. words, words. leaves blown by wind in spiral libraries
on shelves of birds in an unlettered sky. leaves fly a spiral
library on shelves of birds in an unlettered sky.